The Depression Circle

by April33

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Confusion, get out of bed, what's eating me
Eat or wash, it don't matter but pins me
Right here. In bed till 2 on what they tell me is a
Beautiful day, so they say, liars
The daylight world, too much choice and stress
A total mess, my house, my life, my future
Do I have a future? These thoughts are why I like
The darkness, with a whisky chaser

It may look like I'm doing nothing, but I'm building towers
Taking all my power I build towers in my mind and I find
Plenty of bricks made of malevolence and hate. At this rate
I'll have made a monument to all the things that grieve me and believe me
I'll have brought you all into a persecution conspiracy
Slowly hack away at the harmony and love that's protecting me
Overriding thought in in my self-destructive isolationist brain
I've ditched friends before and just right now, I'd do it all again

I fall to the floor, can't take this no more

Kiss my lillywhite arse Tom Cruise
I'm needing my Citalopram
My life held loosely together
By 60 whole milligrams
Screw your self-help books
And your ten easy steps
If it was That bleedin' easy
I'd have done it years ago

So you put your life on hold
But when it resumes
It is that much harder
To convince them you're the same man
So I give in to all my demons
For some fleeting relief from the pain
Hit the wall of guilt then rebound
And start all over again

Recovery: It slowly starts to matter if it's day or night
And I appreciate the sunlight
And the love that surrounds me feels real again
So I think that it's just now and then
Now and the I get a blip but that's all I'm not a sinking ship
I don't need the stigma and denial's so much easier so unsurprisingly
That's the finest choice for me
It won't happen again to me I'm fine
Just wait for a relapse

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released January 1, 2011

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April33 Leicester, UK

April33 are an electro-goth-rock band from Leicester consisting of Joe Hawkins (synths/vox), Mike Congreve (guitar) and Jim Huckle (bass).

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